Unedited

I'm not gonna edit this blog for the sheer reason of drowsiness. So here's the unedited story, apologies. :)

My bubbly office pal and I talked about our dream jobs as we ate our dinner tonight. But mind you, she is also a good friend. She freely shares insights about love, friendship, family, and work, with funny and varying disclaimers before she speaks. Something like, "I'm saying this as a colleague" or most of the time, "I'm saying this as a friend."

So this friend of mine has been to so many jobs in less than a year. She openly regards herself as someone who's "continuously soul searching." She's been into corporate, NGO, print, TV prod; only radio's not on the list!

But unlike her who’s so carefree, I keep my thoughts to myself. People say I'm secretive of things. But it's really not in my nature to speak of plans which are not yet there. I just see to it that I don’t preempt the future.

When we say dreams, I got a few good ones too. But then again, I don’t share these to anyone.

Tonight, though, was different.

I did share my hopes with her. Amazing how it felt when I told her these things. It’s like I was expressing myself intelligently and freely to a sister or a best friend. Well, I’ve been dying to tell somebody of my plans before but the “overly paranoid me” kept on shutting me up for fear of sabotage. But tonight, I felt no longer afraid that my plans won’t come true if I say it to others. Instead, I felt more confident and closer to my dreams by just telling someone how much I wanted to get there.

I’m really sleepy but here’s a parting thought:

Dreams are just dreams if they stay in your mind. Dreams become reality when you’re brave enough to affirm how much you wanted to have it and act upon it at the most perfect time.